Things ain't easy here. . .

After one month plus in Canada, I've witnessed a lot of new things and believe it or not, it ain't easy as it looks. Maybe it has something to do with growing up as a part of the process I guess.. I realize that I've become a more of a critical thinker than usual (don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing though). Everything here is fine except for sometimes when you have that glitch of moment when you seem to be kinda lost and that's when everything falls apart -And you tend to break down and sit in a corner thinking to yourself "Can I actually do this?" >,<

Well, I just finished my mid term uno here. The seniors told me not to feel bad if I don't get to get the marks that I hoped for. And somehow they were right. For some reason, I don't know why it's such a pressure here. Maybe it's because you realize that people are counting on you and you are expected to achieve more.



But that's not just it, what makes me more scared is the fact that I have a senior who is sent back to Malaysia coz he didn't pass his LPI test here. And he was already in his 3rd year, meaning there is no way you are entirely safe from the fine borderline. I mean, anything can happen. And so, I was paranoid for quite a long time now. Though I study and stuffs, but still, I can't help thinking bout the fact that I only have 3 chances in which if I don't exceed, I gotta pack up. :s


Really, it was a bummer. And so, life goes on and I have to face it. Now that I am abroad, I truly understand what my good friend, Lisya meant by it ain't easy at first. First year has always been a struggle. Really, the key is to stay strong. Everytime when you feel you're on the verge of falling, it's always you yourself who have to get back up and fight. And that's how I feel right now. And so, though I look fine, I am still trying to FIGURE things out -of how the future might look like. ><

at this point, FALL season literally means fall. Haha. Come rain or shine, I just won't give up.