"What on Earth?!" says the alien

Greetings fellow Earthlings and Martians and Venusians (whether the last two exist or not) out there!

So a dear friend of mine, Mia has given me this vid link and I was planning to reply her in the comments, but it ended up turning into a blog entry. LOL! But yeah, thanks Mia for the vid~ :D And here's the feedback since I feel like doing a midnight film review all of a sudden (is there such a thing???)

Fact #10: 
A common general idea used in typical movies i.e Prometheus (Golly you should watch the How It Should Have Ended version on Youtube! It's damn funneyyhh! x'D (provided that you've watched the original movie of course)

Fact #9: 
Would've been true. . . Coz it's highly possible that the first living cell might have fallen frm the outer space except that's not the case since darwin's theory of evolution is not entirely true whch is a bummer bcoz students can only sit there and listen to lectures that support his theory. Plus, you gotta admit the part where the vid says aliens target the planet to "experiment" with their bacteria is kinda preposterous. . . On what proof can we base that fact on?

Fact #8: 
Wow okay... Technology trade?? Now it says there this happened or perhaps "happened" in 1947. But I believe that the discovery of the vast developing technology is made by none other than the scientists themselves. Physicists to be precise. Now Bohr helped with the quantization of the particles alongside with Einstein around early 90's, roughly 1910's. To those of you who are not familiar with this, the discovery of quantized particle is a signification revolution in the Physics world. To alter the physical world which men have always believed to exist in a continuum, now that is hard I tell you (Well, but not so hard for Einstein and Bohr on the other hand. lol). But to cut things short, this led to what we know now as electronics. Now electrical stuff are fancy, but electronic gadgets, they double those. We can see quantum mechanics being utilized in our digital cameras, phones you name it! (Wow I surely blabbed a lot for this one). But back to my point, the world did not need to wait for the year 1947 to watch all this happen. It is MEANT to happen with all the research that was going on at back then.

Fact #7:
This is a new one for me. Never heard of this theory before. But I have to say, I love the part where they include the Canadian Arctic *GO CANADA!*. Wait wait, hold on for a second there. So if we relate #9 which believes that humans come from monkeys, and that there are lifeforms living in the Arctic. . .
           Arctic + Monkeys = ARCTIC MONKEYS !! *Crying Lightning plays in the background*
What's this Mira? World's Lame Jokes day?? -.-'' HAHA lol okay fine, so monkeys =/= apes. . . But so what? If the whole world is idiotic enough to believe that dressing like Lady Gaga is rad, no person would really care if I mess up the two right? Ahh. . . But there will be a difference wouldn't it? Clearly there is a fine line between ignorance and indifference. It depends on how meticulous one can be. Back to the topic, I'd rather just leave the readers for this one. It is nothing more than an assumption. One might prefer to be ignorant or simply indifferent to the theory.
p/s: Am not a big fan of Arctic Monkeys. Just happens that a friend of mine listens to their songs, causing me to know one or two.

Fact #6:
Talk about mere magical realism (Learnt this in CPU. Thank you ENG 4U for having Life of Pi as our novel! xD ). Well the only thing I know about the Moon; apart from it is made of cheese (again, magical realism) is the childhood cartoon figure Man in the Moon. Could he be one of the Aliens who manipulate humankind throughout the years?? Oh oh! Maybe he's the one who inspired Frank Sinatra to write the song "Fly Me to the Moon"! *sarcasm alert!* xD

Fact #5:
God this one really gave me a presque vu! Now where have I encountered the word Elohim again. . . >,<
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(Many minutes later)

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AHAH! 

AHMED DEEDAT

'Twas from Ahmed Deedat's debates and lectures that I heard him mention the word. It is from either the New Testament or the Old Testament. I can't really direct you readers to which vid specifically coz I lost count and it's too many to be traced back. However, I this is what I found when I searched it up;


"The letters Y H W H occur in the Hebrew (Jewish) Scriptures 6,823 times, boasts the Jehovah's Witness, and it occurs in combination with the word "Elohim;" 156 times in the booklet called Genesis alone. This combination YHWH/ELOHIM has been consistently translated in the English Bible as "Lord God," "Lord God," Lord God," ad infinitum."

Click here for more info on the origin of the word

This is of course based on a religious point of view (Islamic to be precise). But if you read further, it was said that the word became a taboo back in the 16th century. . . How peculiar. . .

Fact #4:
This is something that would never come across my mind. It is however creative though. Ha ha *A decent laugh given* =w=

Fact #3:
One word; no (no way I can make it that short. I'm the Essay Girl for crying out loud. I have to live up to that title. LOL xD ) one sentence: Queen Elizabeth II, George Bush and the Clintons' are cousin to Lord Voldemort *Hiiissssss~~ (snake sound) sambil joget22 to The Strokes' Reptilia* xDDDD

Fact #2:
If this is true, then I have no words left to say. *pull the trigger due to the ridiculous movie influence over today's society*

Fact #1:
Gosh. . . There are better explanations to that dude!! Like helloooooowhhh~~ Ever heard of the paranormal side of the world? Well, for those who at least believe in their books. I believe that some religions like Islam do acknowledge the mystical world of Djins. Yes and this will include the other creatures that can't be seen with the naked eye i.e Satans and Angels. The story of David and Goliath, some people (not me) say that that giant figure, Goliath might even be Djin. And as we all know, Djin can be really large in size and throughout history, it is known to either mislead men or let them be. Even in the world today, there are a few human cultures of the world that associate themselves with the Djins to ask for their 'help' (This of course is not permissible for the Muslims. It's considered an action of blasphemy).

Summary: 
"Aliens" is really an interesting topic to talk about. The so called extra terrestrial activities caught on camera are so hard to be verified due to the advanced tech of vid editing. In my opinion, if one wants to believe in the existence of aliens, they have to give solid proof to the world. I believe, even if there are Aliens out there, I do not think that they are better than human beings. This is because I strongly believe in this verse that emphasizes on how exquisite human beings are;

This is mainly the verse. You'll need to search for the tafsir for more explanation about this verse.

It is absurd on how sometimes how humans can go beyond what their minds can think of. But you know what, one of the reasons to these existing theories, well I dunno, might just be, I repeat MIGHT JUST BE because they in denial of God's existence. To them, it is far more tangible to create another character that is real enough to substitute God. To answer whether Aliens exist or not is similar to answering whether multiverses exist or not. Sadly, they put the status of God at the same level. :c So, do aliens exist? To be honest,  no one has the slightest clue (coz even some proofs can be fraudulently made up). But hey, sometimes ignorance is a bliss. Appreciate the things that are meant to be kept as a mystery. :]

an update for change.

It's been a while since the last post.. A lot of things had happened during the course of almost a year:

1. Mr Afiq Najmi Jamsari got into Sheffield University and flew off to the UK last September. (Yes, he passed his A-levels with flying seven ultimate rainbow colors of the unicorn~ yipyip22!)
2. I managed to get into my Geophysics major and flew off to Vancouver in September to continue my second year.
3. We attended Abas' wedding on the exact date of my flight back to Vancouver and Dahan had his open house right after.
4. I, for the first time ever contacted Kak Lin (a PHD senior of mine in UBC) to stay at her house while we waited for the day to move into our new house #casablanca woot22!. Mia went back to Okanagan but came to Vancouver multiple times because Vancouverites are awesome (LOL xD)
5. At the beginning of the 1st term, I was busy moving into the new house and Pak Cik Dahan was busy preparing for his departure that September. He later found himself staying in a house with 5 other housemates which soon quickly became his buds (I mean it, they even made a film about their home etc. Haha). So yeap, we then had our Fall or as the Brits say, Autumn term go smoothly. No winter break would be complete without snowboarding, so that's what I did after the finals. Weehoo~ :D
6. Winter break: I went to Spain to spend the holidays with my family there. Turns out Afiq and his friends also went to Spain and believe it or not, we bumped into each other in Mesquita, Cordova. Awkwarddd~ *that's what he said* Ahaha. Spent an ample amount of time with my sister in Cardiff (Guess what? Afiq was there too. Again lol) and went to London to meet some old friends back in college.
7. 2nd term started and Afiq was busy with a lot of activities already. He was so active with his band, frisbee, you name it! He was involved in the Sheffield Games, Battle of the Bands, NEXT, and these are only a few that I named here. For him to be this active in his first year, he has my salute. On my side, things were not as good. I was having breakouts due to the stressful life that I was having. Not that I don't enjoy the life I have here, it's just that I don't find that sheer joy and fun in class that I used to experience back in college. The lectures were getting duller day by day and they repelled not only me but many other students from attending. At one point, I just couldn't wait to finish my finals. Like I don't care about the grades anymore. But of course, interesting things happened along the way, alternating my daily school routine like midterms, midterms and midterms. :3 lol kidding (but really). Like I went to Kelowna with Rabiaal to pay Mia a visit during the spring break (Kelowna people are so friendly!), had sleepovers, organized the MSN event, got elected for MSA and SMC committee, and taught piano basics to lil kids.
8. Hmm. So for some of the outdoor stuff that we did.. That would be bungee jumping for Afiq and his gang, and windsurfing for me and ma gals. Haha.
9. May: My results are out and Alhamdulillah they weren't as bad as I thought >,O. That one week break before summer school started was filled with non-stop activities. We had many people coming to Vancouver -Alan from Toronto, Kak Rina and her bunch from Kelowna, Doje and the gang from Hamilton. It was fun although tiring. The things we did range from camping to shopping at the US outlet to crashing Auntie Saadiah's crib to watching LINDSEY STIRLING's concert! So currently I am in the midst of my summer school (man the classes are happening as fast as lightning) and as for the UK peeps, it's their turn to face the finals. Haha. Ganbatte neee~!!!
10. Boohoo is not needed for Dahan since he'll be going to Monte Carlo of Monaco (Na na na na na na na na na na na22~ I'm no beauty queen I'm just beautiful kingg~~ xDDD )  and Milan of Italy soon after he's done with his finals. As for me, Malaysia here I come!! :D

Errkk.. Wow okay that was a lot for a 10 point-form-sentences made. Anyway, the thing that came across my mind today is change... It's a broad topic. But as I traced back into the past few months, there's no doubt that things have changed -be it to me or to someone else. I, to be honest am not a huge fan of change. I've always loved to have things stay as they were before but c'mon, everyone is old enough to know that that is impossible.

What sucks about change is that it's easier for you to notice the change in people rather than in yourself (Am I right or am I right?). Change comes in lots of sizes and shapes. It could be the attitude, the physical appearance, and even the personality! It can also be the type that leans towards better or worse. So let's just hope it stays somewhere in between or towards better coz I bet everyone here is not up for a negative change. Here's a thing or two about change..

Firstly, what you'll realize is that change matters upon distance. Why? Because the further away you are from someone, the easier it is for you to notice a change in him or her, hence making the change seem to be a big deal. Try to however list down any changes in your housemates or someone you often see and compare. You'll see how hard it is to fill up the paper.

Secondly, you know what, sometimes even if you're friend is near you, changes can happen right in front of your eyes. This is usually depending on the situation or the environment that one is in.

Thirdly, forget about the point 1 and point 2 above coz changes are bound to happen regardless of the two theorems given anyways.

So how do we deal with these unwanted changes? 
1. The hardest part about change is to accept it. The only way for our brains to work well is to acknowledge. By doing this, one can proceed onto the next step to deal with changes.
2. Learn to understand why. Rationale comes in better when we fully put ourselves in that person's shoes.
3. Decide whether to associate or to renounce ourselves from it. This is a really huge step because sometimes though how hard we try to pretend things do not really change between us and that person, we can never really tell what choices we'll make at the end of the day. Sometimes, people have already renounced themselves from that someone while they're in the middle of laying out the reasons. They could just continue detaching themselves or they might just come back into the picture.

I don't plan to go on for too long coz I'm pretty sure a lot of people can relate to this and might already have their own ways to cope with change. My personal experience with change, really, was not pretty.. Up until I realize then that hey, I do too change whether I like it or not. From then on I stopped making a fuss out of it coz that's how things are. They are always evolving and are never meant to be stagnant. One thing's for sure, I'll look back at this post and say to myself "Oh my look how I've changed". Haha!

"Every day is a transformation

Every day is a new sensation

Alteration, modification

An incarnation, celebration

Every day is a new equation

Every day is a revelation

Information, anticipation 

Onto another destination"

What's happening to our education today?? :O

Education and Learning? Is there any difference between them? -YES and NO.

The world nowadays is becoming consumeristic day by day. It is because society is too busy being a consumer today, it undermines their thinking and perception towards education.

Education:

1. The act or process of educating or getting educated.

2. The knowledge or skill obtained or developed by a learning process.

3. A program of instruction of a specified kind or level.

4. The field of study that is concerned with the pedagogy of teaching and learning.

5. An instructive or enlightening experience.

Recently, there are people demanding free education to be given to all. The argument does not seem valid since education is actually being subsidized by the Government from primary school to secondary school. It's just that people need to work harder to get sponsorship/ scholarship from certain organizations and the Government. Why? It's because it's the only way to distinguish those who really want it and deserve it compared to those who take things for granted.

". . .where every person is issued with a Birth Certificate, getting a Birth Certificate can't count as an achievement. Winning a "competition" whose outcome is simply a matter of chance cannot be an achievement, but winning a competition which involves some skill or effort is an achievement." -Morrow, 36

So in a way, making tertiary education a bit exclusive from the schooling level is a way to maintain the quality of the certificates. If everyone wants it for the sake of getting a good job (to achieve personal goal)
- not for the sake of the love of knowledge itself- the country will end up having no one wanting to listen to each other just because each person feels that they are intellectual people, brilliant enough to have their opinions accepted. And at the end, NO ONE LISTENS.



These are the definitions that you can find from Google and online dictionaries. But really, how does one actually evaluate his or her level of knowledge? Is it only through education system (exams, quizzes, tests, assignments, etc)? Or is it that it is set by society that the only way to know one's intelligence is by looking at his or her certificates (degree, masters, PHD).

. . . . . .

Can education be bought and sold?

Should it be earned?

How do we define our achievements?

Does this influence the credibility of education itself?

How serious are the students nowadays in pursuing their education?

What is the value of education?

What happens to the exclusivity of education? - Everyone has the right to receive education. But in this context, we are discussing on tertiary education. Is everyone entitled for that?

Why must there be competition and why must we have the very same degree everyone else is having?

If it's true that education is for all, then why is it that university fees are expensive??

If everyone has a degree, what is the point of valuing the degree then?

We are buying our education in fact. Instead of really wanting the knowledge itself, we want to have that degree just so that we can get a better pay, a better job etc. All for this shallow world. And after all these questionings etc, I figured something that really makes us different from others, which is our perception towards knowledge taught by our religion. To have the knowledge to be used for others' benefits and for the sake of the Hereafter really beats the other purpose of what other people are aftering. Really, it's an honour to have this realization. Let's just hope that the people of the world realize this sooner or later coz we don't really have much time left.

Is It Okay to say I'm Tired? :'(

Somehow this time, I don't feel like expressing myself about the things I'm facing so far with any individuals. But here I am writing the words out in this blog post of what that's going on in me head. . . Simply, coz I feel most people can relate themselves to this kind of situation. So yeah, I feel like sharing. 

Frankly, I think my body is suffering as much as my mind is to keep up with every week's assignments and stuff like non-stop. Though people might think in universities, the profs don't really care whether or not you submit those assignments, but trust me, you don't wanna lose your marks for free. So basically yeah, it's a MUST to check the university online blackboard website everyday, a MUST to check your e-mail everyday, a MUST to read the pre-readings before every lecture, a MUST to do the prelabs and the lab quizzes before the real labs, a MUST to check your Facebook everyday, a MUST to get enough sleep and food everyday.

I'm a Science student =o=

Cool rocks. #EarthSciencesBuilding #Lab

SCIENCE22. . . Haven't touched my Art stuff for ages. . . *Sigh*

Of Canada and Malaysia >,O

HrrMmmMmm. . .  

 

Here's a vid for starters. . . :) aww. . . I miss lil Canada in Malaysia! >,<

HARAPAN = HOPE

Here's a hint before I start this post:3

Who are we?? We are the Youths! BOOM22 PAW~!

Being a Scholar

Before I start, the scope of our topic today covers this definition of scholars: Anyone who receives any financial aid from other sources other than their parents to pursue their studies. Zankyu~~ :)

Living abroad for only about 4 months now is already enough to prove how fortunate it is to be a sponsored student. I mean, look at how lucky we are to have been sponsored that we can buy this and that, travel here and there. BUT one thing that bothers me most is those people who spend their money their sponsor's money recklessly without even considering whether they really deserve it or not. Phones, laptops are maybe a need. . . But, c'mon guys, buying extra phones, PSP,  other game consoles, a 24-inch TV, and gadgets are not really a necessity for now (I'm talking bout as students). . . =w=  

Parallelism in Science and Islam

Something I made during sharing session. . . I am not that knowledgeable bout these stuffs, but am willing to share whatever knowledge I feel worth sharing. So feel free to check the slides out. :)

Here's the link:

Parallelism in Science and Islam

P/S: This is my shortest post EVER! booya~! It's not easy for me to make a post this short ya noe?? xP

uwh22!  And as usual, drop some comments if you guys have any. We can have a short discussion even! :D Hoho. But I hope the slides speak for themselves. Have a good day people. 

Raising Our So Called Voices!

Assalamualaikum! :)

"Freedom of speech" is something BIG nowadays. People keep on wanting it, urging for their so called human rights etc. . . But what's really happening is that, TOO many people urging this whole freedom of speech actually causes it to be something not so new anymore. :/ In fact, if you ask me, I'm actually quite tired of hearing all these nonsensical stuffs about the rights of raising our voices. It's not that I'm totally against it, I mean, there are at some points we need to make our voices heard (i.e world hunger, human trafficking, child abuse, civil wars) , but the whole idea of having freedom of speech becomes like a trend now rather than as a tool to really fight for a noble cause. I mean, look at us now, we're fighting for things that are not worth our time (i.e LGBT, homosexual marriage, censorship of information, etc). Everything has its pros and cons (Y). But it becomes more and more complicated at the end of the day as people demand more and more things to be liberalized. Wow! What about that~! So I'm guessing this is what the Malays usually say "dah bagi betis, nak paha". . . The more we get, the more we demand. We can never be satisfied with what we've gotten. *sigh~

So before I start, the general idea of freedom of speech based on Wikipedia is basically . . .

"the political right to communicate one's opinions and ideas. The term freedom of expression is sometimes used synonymously, but includes any act of seeking, receiving and imparting information or ideas, regardless of the medium used. In practice, the right to freedom of speech is not absolute in any country and the right is commonly subject to limitations, as with libel, slander, obscenity, sedition (including, for example inciting ethnic hatred), copyright violation, revelation of information that is classified or otherwise"

The FORGOTTEN people

FREEZE~! We need your help guys. Please make sure you scroll down and read the whole post on this one to aid the less fortunate people. . . It's the least we can do for them D:

So before I go to sleep tonight, I'm just gonna make a quick post. It's about the FORGOTTEN people ;(

About two days ago, a friend of mine sent me a link asking me to sign of for a petition for the ROHINGYA PEOPLE.

Who? HUH?? Where? WHAT? HOW??

I know right? And as you've guessed it, YES I've NO clue of WHO the hack are Rohingya people, WHERE they come from, WHY they are in need of this so called petition and most important of all, WHAT happened to them recently. . . 

Leadership and Compatibility

So to start off in this post, I'd like to actually dedicate this to a friend of mine, Liyana Syahirah. She reminds me of a great era in STF. :)

Blending in with the CROWD

"What's the thing you're wearing called?" "You look better without the shawl" "I love your hair" "Why do you wear it?" "When do you wear it?" "Is it because your religion asks you to wear it?" "I love your brooch" "Love the scarf you're wearing" "I know the Quran doesn't ask the women to cover their faces. It asks to cover all except the face and the hands" "I love how your scarf look today" "Do you take it off sometimes?" "Ouh, how about those women who covers their faces?" "Why do they do that?" "What's it called?" "Isn't it hot when the Muslims wear it in Saudi?" "Do you have to go to the toilet everytime you wanna adjust your scarf?" "What about you, why don't you cover your face?"

Well hullo there, Salamun-alaikum ( Peace be upon you) *to whomever that might be reading this :)

So, I've been meaning to post some insights about this for a long time, but haven't got the chance to and thank God with His permission, I am able to do so today. 

Sorry for the very "random" yet "formal" way of starting the post. (Guess I'm suddenly in the mood of using the language full of ethics and i don't know, perhaps courteous somehow? >,O lol)

Expect the Unexpected (>,O)

Well, okay so I've experienced a lot of ups and downs here in Canada. . . >,O People might thought "Owh man she's having a blast in Vancouver. Weehee~" :D or, "I wanna be like her", "Man, I can't wait to fly too" etc22. . .

"but yaw~ REALITY CHECK people!"

The thing about studying overseas, you really need to know the purpose why you're here. I mean, if you're here just to have fun, and show off to people "We got snow here! Tralalalala~ :3 " then, forget it. =.= *serious tone* lol. No pressure, but really. *serious tone-again* =..=

So the reason why I'm writing this post here today is coz 1. my brain is stuck with all the homework and assignments that I've gone through *Brain: Have some mercy Mira, I'm about to explodeeeee. . . .  . D:) Moi: Fine22. We should take a break. how bout we go and stalk people on fb? (kidding! lol.)* and 2. I just feel that my world is turning upside down here in a way, really, it's like I'm standing on a round doughnut, and now I'm at the downside up at the bottom part of the doughnut, completely 180 degrees! *well actually not really, I'm just exaggerating using hyperbole for a while there. xD *

My first mid term did not turn out so well as I've expected. And I just feel insecure with the fact that, ouh c'mon Mira, the topics learnt are not all that new?(!) Why aren't you achieving your target?

SUBCULTURE: PUNK- Something you wouldn't have imagined

ENGL 111: Approaches to Non-Fictional Prose (Pop Cultural Studies)

Haha. This course is no doubt interesting to me, but somehow it's confusing because we tend to use a lot of terms that are defined, rather different than what we usually thought. I mean, we are looking at it in a very analytical way, in which sometimes can be very tiring. I mean, it's hard to figure out the concepts that the authors wanna introduce. Sometimes I feel like I'm almost like studying History

I'll be writing an essay about style in which we have to analyze a song and relate it to what we've learnt, but I haven't really found the song I was looking for.. HELP! Eeks! >,<
So basically in this course, we're learning things about how we perceive and look at things, and what influences the so called "pop culture" that we are experiencing today. It's basically split into 3 major things which are:

1. Mediation          2. Style              3. Brand

The New Ninja :P

NIHON GOJU KARATE

So, I just got back from another karate lesson. Though this is not my first class, there's something interesting about our Sensei. Unlike my previous Sensei in Ninjutsu, Sensei Raymond is in his 50's I think. So instead of practicing our punches at the Gym when I was in STF, we practice at the Dojo. And so you'll have the wooden platform covered with mats.

I gotta say the only Malays, well Muslims too I guess are Farhanah and I. As usual, etiquette always comes first in any martial arts. And like before, in Ninja, we would just bow to our Sensei and say "Sensei onagashimasu". But this time it's slightly different, in a way, we have to sit in front of a picture of our Grandmaster (Sort of like the founder) and bow to him too. During that time, my friend and I were a bit blur and we sorta just like lower our heads (not entirely to the floor). 

Right after that, and before starting our lesson, he whispered something to the Senpai. Senpai Ian approached us right afterwards and said something we'd never thought he'd say. . .

R.A.C.I.S.M? :O

Really interesting story. A few friends of mine bumped into this one racist guy in the bus who immediately spoke bout Islam loudly in public and how Muslims are terrorists, and yatta22. They didn't even get to sit in the bus yet, and the old guy had opened his mouth and blabbed bout Islam.

Funny thing is that, the guy did not speak directly to them, but instead he spoke loudly with his acquaintance so that the whole bus can hear their conversation. Wow that's a something ayy? But anyways, based on how it happened, the guy started it by saying the Muslims here are immigrants; "What are they doing here in our country?!" sort of rant. He continued saying that that Islam's "Christmas" is called "Eid Mubarak" in Saudi Arabia. And his friend went "Ouh, so why don't we call Christmas, Eid Mubarak too?". The other guy went "NO we can't because this is a CHRISTIAN country". Ouch, somebody pinch me. I just knew that Canada is a Christian country..:O LOL.xD Irony ayy? I don't really see it being truly Christian when they actually allow homosexual marriage here. Oh well.

Things ain't easy here. . .

After one month plus in Canada, I've witnessed a lot of new things and believe it or not, it ain't easy as it looks. Maybe it has something to do with growing up as a part of the process I guess.. I realize that I've become a more of a critical thinker than usual (don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing though). Everything here is fine except for sometimes when you have that glitch of moment when you seem to be kinda lost and that's when everything falls apart -And you tend to break down and sit in a corner thinking to yourself "Can I actually do this?" >,<

Well, I just finished my mid term uno here. The seniors told me not to feel bad if I don't get to get the marks that I hoped for. And somehow they were right. For some reason, I don't know why it's such a pressure here. Maybe it's because you realize that people are counting on you and you are expected to achieve more.